So mummy dearest have thrown down th ultimatum. One month to decide what th fuck I wanna study else she's kicking me to th curb. Talk about harsh parenting. But she has been a lot better than other parents out there. Th past year I have been not really studying and clubbing non-stop(which she don't know about). I guess not many people have th "freedom" to take a year's break from education.
I'm really thankful for my mother. Spending money one RP, SIM and I can still be this ungrateful, unfilial daughter that fucks shit up. Still giving me my allowance when im doing nothing just rotting at home. I guess she pretty much given up any hope she has in me and I'm planning to get that back. I blame my rebellious year on my relationship and breakup. I'm childish, get over it. But i have given myself one year to be a scum on this Earth and now is th time to get my act back together.
My mind is turning into mush and I have no idea what I wanna study right now. This is th last do-over mummy is gonna give me and I cant fuck things up this time. But I'm so accustomed to my night life right now I'm afraid I cant cope with school. I know what I'm saying is just all bullcrap, I should grow some balls and just get my diploma over and done with.
But th thing is i just cant decide on what I wanna do for th rest of my life. Mummy told me countless times, "A child should always be better than their parents'. I replied that they have set a high benchmark for me to hit let alone surpass. Daddy is a pilot who bought a landed property(current residence) before he was 30 and mummy when to th U and is a respectable teacher right now. I told her I'll do my best (doubts she believes) but I can't promise anything.
Can I boldly say I think I've matured this year?
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